can confirm linux is a type of transgender, the very same day i started to experiment with linux (it was ubuntu, i think) on a virtual machine i started questioning if i was actually bigender instead of solely a trans guy! i still source linux to this day of figuring that out because i think its funny to say linux made me a girl again 🗣️
i got into linux right around the time when i started accepting i was a lesbian and also maybe possibly bigender. this is so funny. linux is a type of transgender!!!!
umm yes i think so. neogender means a gender coined after 2000 and xenogender was coined in…. 2013-ish? so it’s like that whole square rectangle thing. all xenogenders are neogenders but not all neogenders are xenogenders. i think.
after i made a term called neagender, i realized that my experiences were a lot more broad than just that one term. but i didn’t know how to categorize it, or what it would be considered. nothing really felt right. i didn’t really resonate with anything that already existed, whether it be agender, xenogender, or anything else. it felt like some weird… thing that didn’t exist yet and i, of course, said “ooh, i could make something new! i’m inspired!”
one of my favorite things at the time was the dictionary of obscure sorrows. kenopsia is one of my all-time favorite words, i just think it’s really neat sounding and with an even cooler meaning. i thought to myself, what if i made an umbrella term for things that kinda fit into the same vibe as neagender? voids, yeah, but way more than that. stuff like liminal spaces and emptiness, the unknown, obscurity, the uncanny, things i love but that also make me feel uneasy. paradoxes, the unexplainable. big vast things like space and the ocean. i could go on forever with a billion more examples. since i was describing a very broad and vague concept, based on “vibes” instead of strict lines for what does and doesn’t count, i settled on making a new umbrella term instead of a gender system or something more restrictive.
originally, kenochoric was called kenocoric, because i didn’t understand the context behind the coric suffix yet. i was still new to neogenders and specific coining rules at the time. but i was pretty quickly informed of its misuse, and i went. hm. well. choric would also work, because i think it could tie into the greek word for “room” which can relate to stuff like liminal spaces, emptiness, and other common kenic stuff. so i changed it to that within a day or two of making it.
i made kenochoric for me. to describe a thing i was. i didn’t realize it would catch on with so many people, and ever since that point it’s been getting expanded upon, with new words and new variations of the experience that’s grown naturally. it’s been really cool to see.
What would be your ideal transition as a kenochoric person
a thing that you’re incapable of fully perceiving. kind of like an optical illusion. overloads your brain so you can only see a warped or simplified version of what it really looks like. i mainly experience my kenosity through the idea of “the unknown,” so it would be best represented as something that you genuinely can’t fully know the appearance of.
i can’t explain shit for shit, but at least in that context it’s like women who don’t realize they’re lesbians for a while cuz misogyny + homophobia in society makes them like. try to fit in. and sometimes they get fake “crushes” they can never actually obtain and stuff. if something’s actually reciprocated, it might suddenly feel gross or uncomfortable.
like umm, an example from when i was a kid: all my (girl) friends were in a circle and talking about their crushes on boys, and kept “daring” me during games to finally admit which boy i liked, so i just picked the most popular one in school because i knew people’d think it’s weird if i didn’t have one. and i tried to convince myself that i toooottally did because that’s what’s normal. in reality i kinda hated him lol.
and then later on, i thought i had a crush on this guy who had a crush on me, i was like oh we’re close and everyone thinks we’re dating and he keeps trying soooo, i guess i must like him? ok. but then every time he actually tried to make any advancement on me i would Freak the Fuck Out and run from the situation.
that’s why i was saying it’s hard to know if you’re bi or if it’s comphet or even internalized arophobia, bc a lot of these experiences can look similar on the surface. 👍🏻
there’s also no winning. i quickly went from saying i was gay to bi because my family freaked out way less when they thought me ending up with a guy was still an option. but when you’re bi, a lot of people don’t take you seriously or act like you’re Less Into Women. and then some people don’t even think aros exist. so you’re going through this journey of self discovery, and you’ve got haters every single step of the way. nightmare blunt rotation.
(different anon) i think the more common term for it is usamerican? i don't think i've seen anyone say usian before (also it could be easily mistaken for asian instead)
usian is a term i’ve seen used before, so i kinda just defaulted to it. usamerican is more clear though, i’ll change it to that
Did you not know? If you don't share your opinions on every topic ever then I, a random person who's not entitled to any information about you or your beliefs, will assume you must have the Bad opinions.
(sarcasm, if it's not obvious)
wake me up (wake me up inside) can’t wake up (wake me up inside) SAAAAAVE MEEEEE
what’s an uncommon/specific /obscure topic you’re interested in?
:3c
do you collect anything?
CRYSTALS. i looooove crystals. my grandma makes jewelry so she’s always given me little rocks and crystals and things so now i have A Problem. i have so many that i legitimately have an entire box of geodes in storage. my favorite one is this little rose quartz pillar i carry around in my pocket sometimes as something that makes me feel a little less anxious. idk if i really think crystals have any kind of actual “magical” properties or anything but i like to imagine thatthey do just bc i think they’re really cool! ^_^ also seriously end the stigma of lab grown crystals i am so sick of it!!!! they’re literally the same thing except people don’t need to be exploited to get them. it’s all just artificial scarcity, everyone and their grandma could have a diamond if we stopped exclusively putting value on blood diamonds and rejecting “"fake”“ ones that weren’t drilled up by exploited workers in the global south to sell for a ridiculous amount of money <- political tangent bc this makes me so mad
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what’s your favourite piece of clothing you own?
i have this really comfy loose cropped shirt that was really cheap and honestly should be falling apart but i love how it looks on me and it’s so god damn comfortable it’s my favorite thing in the universe. i also have this really baggy blue hoody thats super comfortable, and i wear it around my apartment constantly whenever it’s cold. it has the logo of one of my childhood ice cream shops on it so it’s extra special :)
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who was your childhood favourite music artist?
avril lavigne 10000000%. i was OBSESSED with avril’s music when i was a little kid. also hillary duff, i loved her a LOT as well. later on i also got into selena gomez, katy perry (oh, how times change), and owl city. it took a while, but eventually i found linkin park through my babysitter, and some rock music like silversun pickups and vampire weekend from my mom, which kickstarted my dive into rock music and later metal yayyyyyy
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what’s an uncommon / specific / obscure topic you’re interested in?
i have a ton of them, but probably my oldest one is shipwrecks and plane crashes. the titanic was my first special interest, and i think it just branched out from there into anything similar. i’m also really into codes / ciphers, i had a book about it that i read dozens of times that went through the history of people using cryptography and codebreaking at increasing levels, in an eternal cycle of people making more and more difficult ciphers and codebreakers having to figure out more and more complex ways of breaking them!
If someone had an ecter instead of a gender, would they be considered agender?
yes, cuz they have no Gender and that’s what agender is referring to. if you had no ecter, the best and most simple word for it would prolly be “anecter.” you could also spell it as aecter, but i feel like anecter is way easier to say and read (a- / an- as a prefix have the same meaning, anyways)
maybe you could coin new terms separating masc/man and fem/woman? since translunar and transtidal are pretty widely used now i feel like it would be hard to try and correct the definitions now
i “count” as transmasc, but i don’t use that label. i’m multigender, but when i say “i’m transmasc” to people, they usually assume i’m “an afab person who is trans guy-adjacent” when like. noooo. i’m also a girl. and kenochoric. and maybe some other shit. none of those experiences are more in the background or less important to me
i know that’s not ACTUALLY what transmasc means, obviously multigender people and shit are included in the term, but that’s still the impression a lot of people get and it sucks. i always get exclusively he/him’d and grouped in exclusively with guys, even if i add in that i’m nonbinary or multigender after the fact. idk if you could consider that exorsexism, but i can definitely consider it “annoying as fuck”
can someone be both kenochoric and xenogender in a bigender way? like two separate genders and i'm both of them?
well since they’re separate terms in general, yeah of course! it’s kind of like how some people are a gender that’s a mix of man and woman [androgynous?], and some people who experience both of them but as standalone things [like me!] similarly, someone might experience that mixture of kenochoric and xenogender, or you might experience them both as distinct things :3
re: https://www.tumblr.com/amatopunk/791792899451961344/are-you-intersex?source=share , if it helps at all i went to see what was up and found out i was intersex later in life and i did have to go more than once so they could do multiple different tests but it was really non invasive and didnt take too long :)
That does make me feel a little better 😭 idk what it is about doctors, I just get so anxious in any kind of like, “professional” setting, but I know most doctors are nice [probably]
kenochoric + some other of your flags, including the plural one, are options for the pride flag coloured linux distro logo on hyfetch! (a terminal system information tool that also colours the distro icon in fun pride flag colours)
Possibly, but I don’t know for sure. It can be kinda hard to tell without a visit to the doctor if something is this, that, or the other thing when a lot of things share signs, but it’s something I’ve considered for a while- I’m just absolutely terrified of doctors and have the [social] anxiety of a flea surrounded by vacuum cleaners, so I doubt I’ll ever muster up the courage to go and ask about it. I have some outward signs and it’s a likely possibility for what those signs are, but I think I should still be considered perisex unless I become certain of otherwise, in the equally-possible scenario that it’s not an intersex condition
It does, though xenogender is one of many neogenders and it kinda implies it’s not one, which I don’t wanna do. But I wanted to separate them in those tags since the post was largely talking about xenogender people, and I didn’t want to leave them out of my point
How do you feel about the new Homestuck animated adaption? idk how to feel abt it bc it looks cool but like vivziepop is racist soo... :/
i’m warily enthusiastic, vivziepop’s studio is funding it but she has no direct control over the writing. so i’m not like, concerned about it being more like her specific writing style. i want it to be mostly faithful, though i know some things will have to change across mediums
also idk much about vivziepop or hazbin or anything like literally at all, but like. we have to be honest with ourselves. homestuck also has a bunch of racist stuff in it, among other things. so many things we like without a second thought have racist and otherwise bigoted elements, but we tend to hold up the things we like on a pedestal while being happy to rip apart something else we already didn’t like. there is a lot to criticize and unpack when it comes to homestuck. and a ton of other beloved series. that’s not saying you can’t like any of them, obvs- i literally talk about homestuck on this blog- but we also can’t hold them up as moral standards when they never met those standards to begin with
so idk. are vivzie’s worksway more bigoted than hussie’s, or do we give homestuck grace because we like homestuck, and don’t like hazbin? i can’t answer that because like i said, i don’t know vivziepop or her stories very well, but i do think the reaction to this from homestuck fans who don’t mention the bad shit in their own series is a bit misinformed
im a little confused about the goth and grunge terms. isn't goth an aesthetic? what is "goth culture." like gothic?
“Goth” and “grunge” are two music-based cultures. Gothic isn’t the same thing- that’s a style of architecture and art that was part of the basis for what became “being a goth” later. Goth as a music genre comes from something called “post-punk,” which was the basis for what became a lot of different alternative cultures
Goth does have a common set of “looks” to it, but that’s not actually what makes someone a goth. It comes from people who listen to goth music and are members of that scene / culture! Some “goths” look absolutely nothing like what you might expect, because fashion isn’t always part of how someone engages with it- after all, they don’t have to! It’s like how not every “punk” who listens to punk music and engages in that culture necessarily looks like a “punk”
The Cure, Bauhaus, Sisters of Mercy, and Cocteau Twins are good examples of goth music. There’s also goth metal, like Lacuna Coil, and there’s bands that are either proto-goth or adjacent but not quite the same, like The Smiths and Joy Division
Grunge is similar. It’s a music genre started in I thiiiink the later 80s, and a culture was formed around it. It also has its own common set of “looks” to it, but it’s not an actual necessity for being grunge yourself. You just gotta like the music and wanna be involved in the culture
Like, think about “emo.” What is an emo? You think of a look, but does every emo actually look like a stereotypical one? Nah. But someone with bleach blonde hair and The Most Not Emo outfit you can imagine is still an emo if they listen to like, Jimmy Eat World, Modern Baseball, or MCR, right? Goth, grunge, and punk are like that too! :3
fwiw i can see the gendergoth/gendergrune post in the tags and dashboard now! i have no idea what made it get yoinked either but it is no longer in the clutch of the infernal censoring machine 🗣️
OH THANK GOD. i emailed tumblr support about it but i have no idea if they actually saw it or if it just got cleared on its own :P
it wasnt supposed to be (i use 🗣️ like vevery other sentence i cannot lie) but im not opposed to it! ive never been a named anon before that sounds dope 🗣️
welcome to my pantheon, oh wise 🗣️ anon. it makes it look like you’re yelling out “anon,” which is really funny
cannot express how refreshing it is to have you and a mogeye-esque term on my dash again, nature is healing thank you boss. heres to hoping your mental health doesnt like fucking implode and we live joyously forever 🗣️
YAYYY THANK YOU!!!
god i hope not. buuuut i doubt it. i had a lot of problems with putting way too much work/pressure on myself and being a people-pleaser when i was younger, but after having time to mature i’ve recognized that as a problem, and i know when i’d be biting off more than i can chew or what kinds of things aren’t worth putting energy into. i’m here to have funnnnn i’m LITERALLY frolicking
also is that little emoji a sign-off? i can tag your anons if so :D
if you ever do recreate mogeye you could do requests slots! like, you could say you’ll take 5 requests, then get all those done before you reopen slots again. makes things a lot less overwhelming for me personally
WHY DID I NEVER THINK OF THAT. <- has never understood how people survive doing requests. is now understanding that she does not understand a thing.
nah. i mean, okay, kinda. some of the stuff i saw him doing and saying to people did make me permanently disillusioned, and i also became really disappointed in myself for following someone who, had i checked instead of blindly trusting him- who already intimidated me and who i knew could be really rude in disagreements- i would’ve seen was genuinely awful to whoever he thought deserved it. i know i can’t change the world and not everything’s my fault, but i absolutely did and still do to an extent partially blame myself for not having the willpower to confront him. considered apologizing directly to all those people he hurt with his shitty blocklist, but i decided against it cuz i’m sure they just wanted to be left the fuck alone after it all
i wouldn’t say it’s why i left, but i would say it fucked me up and only contributed to how bad my health eventually got. idk. all i can hope for now is that he ended up getting the support he clearly needed at the time, and that he’s getting better like i eventually did after leaving. i also just think it’s a lesson in how maybe communities shouldn’t have “leaders” or people who get a little too much influence and start having the capability to do some serious harm
the “full” reason why i left was just mental health issues and burnout. i was getting really bad, from the mix of juggling servers, to discourse, to the general stress of being Known, to big life changes all happening at the same time… but didn’t feel like i could honestly talk about it without people freaking out that they’d lose all my coining posts. which pissed me off ngl, like okay you care more about my terms than my depleting health i’m telling you about right now??? gee, thanks -_-
i also had a friend on the outside who kept confronting me and trying to talk me into leaving. she later said i was in a “constant dissociative state,” which i don’t remember but i mean, i guess that checks out for dissociation. it took months of convincing until i actually did it. i didn’t delete my blogs at first, until a couple people followed me to my new account and accidentally scared the shit out of me [not their faults, was just in a bad place and being “found” made my paranoia go crazy] and i thought that deleting them would fix the problem
and like. it somehow did. i got that peace i really needed. and now that i’m back i fully intend on doing it on my own terms and never letting myself get to that point again. i’m older and in a way better place in general, so i’m not worried about coming back
NGL I always thought you left the community because of ezgender
nah. i mean, okay, kinda. some of the stuff i saw him doing and saying to people did make me permanently disillusioned, and i also became really disappointed in myself for following someone who, had i checked instead of blindly trusting him- who already intimidated me and who i knew could be really rude in disagreements- i would’ve seen was genuinely awful to whoever he thought deserved it. i know i can’t change the world and not everything’s my fault, but i absolutely did and still do to an extent partially blame myself for not having the willpower to confront him. considered apologizing directly to all those people he hurt with his shitty blocklist, but i decided against it cuz i’m sure they just wanted to be left the fuck alone after it all
i wouldn’t say it’s why i left, but i would say it fucked me up and only contributed to how bad my health eventually got. idk. all i can hope for now is that he ended up getting the support he clearly needed at the time, and that he’s getting better like i eventually did after leaving. i also just think it’s a lesson in how maybe communities shouldn’t have “leaders” or people who get a little too much influence and start having the capability to do some serious harm
normally i’d be happy to, but i actually used a base code that’s linked on my homepage on neocities. i did edit it a fair bit, mostly for the buttons and removing a couple things i didn’t want, but it’d still feel really scummy to do that, even if i directly credited them for the base code wherever i uploaded it. i would be happy to show anyone the html/css i did to make the buttons themselves though :)
Okay so I went and checked out their Neocities again, and they said that their themes are “free to use and credit is greatly appreciated.” So I think if I put a named and linked credit within the code itself at the top, and in the title of the upload, it would maybe be okay to have my edited version uploaded. Still though, I think I’d rather contact them and ask them directly beforehand, if possible
Would you ever consider uploading the HTML of one of your Neocities pages so people can make their own?
normally i’d be happy to, but i actually used a base code that’s linked on my homepage on neocities. i did edit it a fair bit, mostly for the buttons and removing a couple things i didn’t want, but it’d still feel really scummy to do that, even if i directly credited them for the base code wherever i uploaded it. i would be happy to show anyone the html/css i did to make the buttons themselves though :)
not sure if it’d work in every instance, i’m not super good at html, but it worked for me. i also added in a media element to where it won’t be sticky anymore if the screen width is too small, like on a phone or something:
@ media (orientation: portrait), (max-width: 480px) {
kenochoric was my 9/11 it got me to reread homestuck
this is truly a level of raw, astronomical Winning the likes of which i did not know i could harness. my power knows no limits. mr. president, a second Vriska
SO glad to see youre still neocities posting, your posts on kenochoric about neocities like a few years ago now are what got me into it and its ruled 🗣️
OMG REALLY???? i’m so happy that my neocities rambling back in the day actually got people into it!!
