it’s kinda funny after moving and being in a bit of a rough situation for a while i lost a very significant amount of weight, and while everyone else in my family was happy about it, i wasn’t, and i’m still not… i don’t look or feel quite right, i feel less “healthy,” more weak and prone to getting sick more often, and i just miss how i used to look and feel quite a bit. i remember family members would call me fat and i’d look in a mirror after, feeling awful at first because i was clearly being shamed about it, as if i was gross… but over time, i grew to actually like my weight and was pretty vocal about it, much to the dismay and confusion of said family. it felt like a part of me and it’s just. how i looked! it was normal and good. it doesn’t feel like getting better to lose it, it feels like getting worse