there were so many different iterations of YA books with a love triangle in it, twilight, mortal instruments, fallen, divergent, hunger games, and i find it a shame that absolutely none of them had the idea for one of the love interests to be a girl like the protagonist. it’d be way more compelling if the two love interests were a little more different besides just “this is a boy with light hair, this is a Dark And Mysterious Boy with black hair, both of them are white and super muscular and heterosexual.” maybe the mc didn’t even know she could like girls at first, so she has to untangle the fact that she has a crush on both a guy and a girl and doesn’t know what to do about it. and CRUCIALLY: why not have the love triangle end in a polycule instead of yet another “i can only have one 😔” ending. i get most people are monogamous but come on, not one single story ever thought to have it end with them all getting together? womp womp
you can tell that my baby queer self read a lot of YA because the hunger games was Actually Good + some of them had gay characters and i was desperate for anything i could get. you can also tell i am extremely bitter from Various Tropes i had to pretend to be invested in so i could drag myself through yet another iteration of The Same Damn Story. the hunger games was the only real one i’m sorry
also of course the lesbian button: girl trapped in a love triangle with two guys pining for her. plot twist she realizes she’s a lesbian and runs off into the sunset with the evil villain girl instead. would kill for this
there were so many different iterations of YA books with a love triangle in it, twilight, mortal instruments, fallen, divergent, hunger games, and i find it a shame that absolutely none of them had the idea for one of the love interests to be a girl like the protagonist. it’d be way more compelling if the two love interests were a little more different besides just “this is a boy with light hair, this is a Dark And Mysterious Boy with black hair, both of them are white and super muscular and heterosexual.” maybe the mc didn’t even know she could like girls at first, so she has to untangle the fact that she has a crush on both a guy and a girl and doesn’t know what to do about it. and CRUCIALLY: why not have the love triangle end in a polycule instead of yet another “i can only have one 😔” ending. i get most people are monogamous but come on, not one single story ever thought to have it end with them all getting together? womp womp
you can tell that my baby queer self read a lot of YA because the hunger games was Actually Good + some of them had gay characters and i was desperate for anything i could get. you can also tell i am extremely bitter from Various Tropes i had to pretend to be invested in so i could drag myself through yet another iteration of The Same Damn Story. the hunger games was the only real one i’m sorry
there were so many different iterations of YA books with a love triangle in it, twilight, mortal instruments, fallen, divergent, hunger games, and i find it a shame that absolutely none of them had the idea for one of the love interests to be a girl like the protagonist. it’d be way more compelling if the two love interests were a little more different besides just “this is a boy with light hair, this is a Dark And Mysterious Boy with black hair, both of them are white and super muscular and heterosexual.” maybe the mc didn’t even know she could like girls at first, so she has to untangle the fact that she has a crush on both a guy and a girl and doesn’t know what to do about it. and CRUCIALLY: why not have the love triangle end in a polycule instead of yet another “i can only have one 😔” ending. i get most people are monogamous but come on, not one single story ever thought to have it end with them all getting together? womp womp
also while i’m on the train. hi. if you have a rentry or a carrd or whatever, consider neocities. it’s so awesome. html is hard and time-consuming for you in comparison to the ease of a rentry? no problem + understandable, i know how it can be + i’ve got you covered
check out sadgrls layout builder and all her other resources for the layout of the page [it looks good on mobile too, and everything within the code is labelled, so you know exactly where each element is], and html-online to convert rich text to html text, or alternatively markdowntohtml to convert markdown [what rentry uses] to html. just copy-paste the converted text into the relevant place in the layout code, and boom. you’re pretty much done aside from however much customization you want to do or not do. you can literally just stop there if you so choose
i promise you it doesn’t need to look perfect like all the sites on the homepage. it doesn’t matter, you can edit that shit little by little whenever you want. you can learn html in tiny little pieces so it becomes a little easier to edit your site over time, if you want. but crucially, you own that site. you can freely download and use that site and everything on it however you want. wanna self host it later? go ahead! it’s YOURS. it helps promote a more independent internet AND you get to have fun. make a neocites now
i mean hell you can even make it look just like a rentry. plain colored background + center the text and it looks very similar and simple/clean. also webrings are so fun if you’ve got friends who also have a neocities, you can all basically link your accounts together with arrows and have it loop around to all of your different sites
another tip for people who might have a hard time with making a neocities, or just something that makes things easier in general:
the inspect element tool on firefox [and possibly chrome, but i’m not as familiar with that] is a lifesaver!
you can find it by right clicking on any element on your neocities site.
let’s say i want to change this background to black, instead of the green background. but i don’t know exactly what color hex to use, maybe i want it to be partly transparent, and i also don’t want to do a million previews through dozens of hex codes. you can do that with inspecting!
okay, so i right-clicked on this box and clicked inspect. this big menu pops up, so let me run through what each of these things are, in numbered order.
when you click on an element and then inspect, it’ll jump you to whatever the element you had selected was. if you hover over the html anywhere, it’ll show you a visual highlight of exactly where on the screen that code affects.
this is the css of the element, and it’s what i’ll be using to edit the background. it also shows you any parent elements [elements that the existing element is inside]!
this area will show you the parent elements as well, and you can click on each one to jump to those. useful if your editing doesn’t seem to affect anything- you might be on too specific of an element and need to go back a bit
the little select icon is a way for you to point and click on any other element for editing
alright, so for changing the color, you need to go to the css [2].
you’ll see “background-color: #hexcodehere”, and there’s a little color there. if you click the color itself, it should pop up as a little color selector screen, and you can easily change the color and preview how it would look if you put it in the actual code editor! there’s even a color picker, if you want it to be the same color as something else on the page!
you can use the inspect element to do so much more than this! you can add html and css, edit any of it, change any aspect. toy around with it; when you reload the page, everything resets. this is not actually editing your site, this is a preview- so make sure if you like what you changed, you copy it and replace the old code with the new code!
the moon with the horizontal stripe going under/through it is meant to vaguely look a bit like an “A” (hence the “punk” in amatopunk)
the center eclipse was thought of because the study of celestial bodies is often a study in planets, moons, and stars and how they may or may not orbit around each other. there’s eclipses [an unnamed sort of “union”], but there’s also the moon around the earth, jupiter with over 70 moons, rings, and, of course, planets with no moons, and planets that are not tethered in orbit to anything [rogue planets]. this can represent how relationships between people in society can present themselves in countless ways, as well as the people who do not participate in some or any of them
the beams around the eclipse, meanwhile, are to represent all the different facets of people affected by amatonormativity, some are colored in the same as the moon [thus representing relationships], and some are not, which could represent people who are amatopunk for other reasons, but are still linked together under one movement
re: https://www.tumblr.com/amatopunk/791792899451961344/are-you-intersex?source=share , if it helps at all i went to see what was up and found out i was intersex later in life and i did have to go more than once so they could do multiple different tests but it was really non invasive and didnt take too long :)
That does make me feel a little better 😭 idk what it is about doctors, I just get so anxious in any kind of like, “professional” setting, but I know most doctors are nice [probably]
This clip of Judith Butler is so good I just had to share it on my account. The way they intertwine feminism and trans liberation together isreally refreshing, I have GOT to read more of their books. The original clip is from an interview they had with @/politicsjoe!
[Judith uses both they/them and she/her pronouns, but has said they prefer the former.]
Transcript:
[The way] feminism began was by calling into question, received notions of what a woman is. They tell you, “you belong in the household.” They tell you, “you’re good for reproduction.” They tell you, “You’re not able to do that kind of work. You can’t engage in sports. You can’t be a public speaker. You certainly can’t be a politician. You can’t be an intellectual, or if you are, you’re never going to be quite as good.”
So what has feminism been about? It’s been about contesting received ideas of what a woman is. Why did we start women’s studies, feminist studies, gender studies? Well, we did because we wanted to call into question these presuppositions that had been taken for granted for too long.
So we ask the question, what is it to be a woman? Or what does it mean to be a woman? Simone De Beauvoir, “one is not born but rather becomes a woman.” Really? It’s not biologically… it’s not the biological function that makes you a woman? No, it’s not the biological function. It’s actually nothing specific about the biology that alone defines you as a woman. It’s part of the picture, but how you live that, way you deal with that, is a question of history. It’s a question of freedom. It’s how you negotiate your situation, which is a historically complicated one, where there are established norms and roles.
So feminism has always kept the question open, “what is a woman,” And refused to answer it. Refused to answer it on principle. Because we don’t know all the things women can be and do, and we’re not about to say in advance, “This is who you are. Stay within your limits. Stay within this category. We’ve decided this is what a woman is, and you have to live there.” No, we don’t do that. We’re a freedom struggle.
i watched a video about white leftism (or in other terms white liberalism) and I can definitely relate my experiences to the topic, as a lot of white leftist haven’t deprogrammed their antiblackness and white supremacy from their minds along with how a lot of these people are extremely performative and don’t care to listen to black voices unless we water everything down to them under a relatable lense or another white person repeats it back to em.
it also touched upon how even among other leftist minority groups, poor, queer, etc, black folks are still treated significantly worse than their white peers.
and I’ve witnessed this with my own two eyes btw. I’ve argued and seen antiblackness from white “Marxist left leaning” types who I’m 100% sure are larpers and would piss themselves about how Malcolm X was actually a black radical extremist or whatever bullshit they can say and instantly deflect because they are on level one of being anti fash.
my thing is, I want white leftist to learn to boost and listen to black voices along with shutting the fuck up when it’s not your turn to speak.
i say, learn to talk to and meet more black people and understand us more.
kenochoric + some other of your flags, including the plural one, are options for the pride flag coloured linux distro logo on hyfetch! (a terminal system information tool that also colours the distro icon in fun pride flag colours)
kenochoric + some other of your flags, including the plural one, are options for the pride flag coloured linux distro logo on hyfetch! (a terminal system information tool that also colours the distro icon in fun pride flag colours)
It sucks so much that it took years for me to figure my gender out, so many years never feeling fully satisfied calling myself anything, because of joint transphobia from cis people and misogyny + exorsexism from other trans people. Like, on one hand I had cis people try to force me to be feminine, pushed me into being A Woman in a way that made me so uncomfortable and dysphoric that I became extremely avoidant and negatively biased towards it, thought I had to be a man and only a man or otherwise I would have to be that same thing getting forced onto me. Then while I was growing up there were transmeds everywhere, I briefly was one after some adults pulled my 14 year old self into a Discord server from Tumblr because I was openly IDing as a demiboy. And obviously they, all together, were able to dismantle a younger teenagers half-baked arguments and understanding of Big Scary Words and they sounded smart, so I thought they must be right. Then being surrounded by misogyny, the constant discourse about queer women of this or that group, the right-wing and antifeminist memes of my teen years being everywhere, Gamergate, transmeds… it only made me feel both unhappy in my manhood because it was so focused on self-hate, but it also unknowingly made me internalize so much misogyny and basically made the idea of also being a woman sound like a horrible, awful thing. Not great when you’re both
But there’s a silver lining to it, from when I got pulled out of the transmed spiral into hell, that I still remember to this day. There was this trans guy on my bus who was just… the most radiant and incredibly positive person I’d ever met. He was always there for me when I was going through all that depression and moping around, no matter how ridiculous I thought I was being, he showed me happy music and patted my back and was just. Always a friend! And he barely even knew me! One day I find out two things. First of all, he didn’t have gender dysphoria. And it confused the hell out of me, because The Worms had taken over my brain and I thought, wait, what, aren’t those people [insert horrible stereotype here]? That shook me hard enough. But THEN, not long after I found out the guy- this positive, unconditionally kind guy who was seemingly friends with everyone- was getting bullied. By almost all the other trans people in my school, including ones I thought were nice. Purely for not having gender dysphoria. And I realized how fucked up my new “friends” twice my age really were and said fuck that, bye assholes! Shout out to Marco the best trans guy of all time.
About a year later, largely thanks to Marco, I was very open about being trans. I didn’t know I was nonbinary yet, but I was much more comfortable in my manhood and went by just a male name and pronouns despite not “passing” at all. And I met this person who at the time was IDing as a cis pan guy. We became REALLY good friends, I sometimes got asked kinda weird questions but I was open to it, I knew my friend’s parents were conservative and not everybody’s gonna know everything, though I did put my foot down [gently] a couple times when I needed to. I just existed, openly, around people. And just last year, I got an email from her. It turned out, she was a trans woman and she had no idea that was even an option for her. And what helped her figure it out? According to her, it was meeting me. Realizing it was an option, because I didn’t hide who I was in front of a supposedly cis person who was confused, but never mean, always tried. Hearing that was fucking life-changing
I think my point to all of this is like. Actually, being open about who you are is a good thing. I don’t think you should ever feel ashamed for being open about yourself and living confidently with it. You might not realize it, but you literally change people’s lives and make them realize that they don’t have to be miserable purely by existing openly. That being trans can bring you joy and happiness. Marco, purely by being nice to me and being open about his identity, pulled me out of a self-hating spiral that was built on harassing trans kids. I, purely by existing, helped a trans girl who didn’t even know what the hell a transgender person was, who didn’t always use the right language and who I openly talked to about being trans anyways, correcting but never shaming her for it, realize that she could be trans, too. Your open existence literally brightens people’s lives
Possibly, but I don’t know for sure. It can be kinda hard to tell without a visit to the doctor if something is this, that, or the other thing when a lot of things share signs, but it’s something I’ve considered for a while- I’m just absolutely terrified of doctors and have the [social] anxiety of a flea surrounded by vacuum cleaners, so I doubt I’ll ever muster up the courage to go and ask about it. I have some outward signs and it’s a likely possibility for what those signs are, but I think I should still be considered perisex unless I become certain of otherwise, in the equally-possible scenario that it’s not an intersex condition
It does, though xenogender is one of many neogenders and it kinda implies it’s not one, which I don’t wanna do. But I wanted to separate them in those tags since the post was largely talking about xenogender people, and I didn’t want to leave them out of my point
The queer community (especially the liomogai branch) has an exorsexism problem.
There are so many examples of this we could give, but the biggest ones we want to address are these following points:
First issue:The fact that nearly every term coined is split into three categories - boy, girl, and enby.
This is an issue, because it treats “enby” as a singular category, rather than a mixture of categories. Often it will treat it as an androgynous or neutral counterpart, “boy” as the masc counterpart, and “girl” as the fem counterpart (when non-binary boys and nonbinary girls exist, and also not all masculine genders or feminine genders are male-aligned/female-aligned.)
This is exorsexist because:
1. It usually treats “boy” and “girl” as the masc/fem counterparts (when non-binary boys and nonbinary girls exist, and also not all masculine genders or feminine genders are male-aligned/female-aligned.)
2. It often treats “enby” as a neutral, null, or androgynous counterpart, when not all non-binary identities align those ways.
3. It lacks inclusion for people who aren’t explicitly feminine, masculine, androgynous, or neutral/null.
The solution to this? If you’re going to coin a term, make a boy, masc, girl, fem, androgynous, neutral, null, genderless, xenine, outherine, aporine, multigender, and fluid/flux version. Don’t just default to making three versions.
Second issue: Even within the community, xenogenders and pocket genders are treated as aesthetics rather than true genders.
A lot of the time, we see the community “defending” xenogenders and microlabels by saying “it’s just people having fun!” or “it’s just using metaphors, its not literal!”
The problem with this is that, yes, xenogenders often use metaphors to describe their genders, but the way people “defend” them makes it sound like the gender itself is just a metaphor, and that it’s just a “game” or “make belief.” Just because xenogenders use metaphorical language doesn’t mean they don’t cause real, genuine, gendered feelings for the individual. The gender isn’t a metaphor, the description of it is, just like how all other genders use metaphorical language (what is femininity? Explain it without using metaphors or aesthetics. You can’t. Xenogenders are no less valid than femininity, they just use non-traditional descriptors.)
Furthermore, calling them “fun” takes away from the seriousness of the identity. Yes, any gender can be fun, but that shouldn’t be the reason behind why it’s “okay.” That shouldn’t be a defense because it doesn’t always hold up. Not all xenine people have fun with their genders. A lot of them are miserable because they feel like they don’t get taken seriously for being xenine, or have a harder time reaching their transition goals because society at large doesn’t view their genders as anything more than a silly little game.
Trying to fight exorsexism by making xenogenders sound like an online game isn’t helping, it’s just further influencing transphobes to view xenine individuals as make-believers who will “eventually find their real gender” because their “current gender is fake.”
The solution? Say “xenogenders are genders that are described through non-traditional means, because the traditional descriptors don’t fully encompass them.” Don’t try to defend xenogenders by calling them “fun” or “metaphorical.”
How do you feel about the new Homestuck animated adaption? idk how to feel abt it bc it looks cool but like vivziepop is racist soo... :/
i’m warily enthusiastic, vivziepop’s studio is funding it but she has no direct control over the writing. so i’m not like, concerned about it being more like her specific writing style. i want it to be mostly faithful, though i know some things will have to change across mediums
also idk much about vivziepop or hazbin or anything like literally at all, but like. we have to be honest with ourselves. homestuck also has a bunch of racist stuff in it, among other things. so many things we like without a second thought have racist and otherwise bigoted elements, but we tend to hold up the things we like on a pedestal while being happy to rip apart something else we already didn’t like. there is a lot to criticize and unpack when it comes to homestuck. and a ton of other beloved series. that’s not saying you can’t like any of them, obvs- i literally talk about homestuck on this blog- but we also can’t hold them up as moral standards when they never met those standards to begin with
so idk. are vivzie’s worksway more bigoted than hussie’s, or do we give homestuck grace because we like homestuck, and don’t like hazbin? i can’t answer that because like i said, i don’t know vivziepop or her stories very well, but i do think the reaction to this from homestuck fans who don’t mention the bad shit in their own series is a bit misinformed
im a little confused about the goth and grunge terms. isn't goth an aesthetic? what is "goth culture." like gothic?
“Goth” and “grunge” are two music-based cultures. Gothic isn’t the same thing- that’s a style of architecture and art that was part of the basis for what became “being a goth” later. Goth as a music genre comes from something called “post-punk,” which was the basis for what became a lot of different alternative cultures
Goth does have a common set of “looks” to it, but that’s not actually what makes someone a goth. It comes from people who listen to goth music and are members of that scene / culture! Some “goths” look absolutely nothing like what you might expect, because fashion isn’t always part of how someone engages with it- after all, they don’t have to! It’s like how not every “punk” who listens to punk music and engages in that culture necessarily looks like a “punk”
The Cure, Bauhaus, Sisters of Mercy, and Cocteau Twins are good examples of goth music. There’s also goth metal, like Lacuna Coil, and there’s bands that are either proto-goth or adjacent but not quite the same, like The Smiths and Joy Division
Grunge is similar. It’s a music genre started in I thiiiink the later 80s, and a culture was formed around it. It also has its own common set of “looks” to it, but it’s not an actual necessity for being grunge yourself. You just gotta like the music and wanna be involved in the culture
Like, think about “emo.” What is an emo? You think of a look, but does every emo actually look like a stereotypical one? Nah. But someone with bleach blonde hair and The Most Not Emo outfit you can imagine is still an emo if they listen to like, Jimmy Eat World, Modern Baseball, or MCR, right? Goth, grunge, and punk are like that too! :3
i always like asking random people i know what their gender would be if it had to be one specific song. i always get interesting answers. it’s pepper steak from OFF for me
pepper steak has it all
sounds unnerving [especially when you know the context]
jazz mixed with heavy industrial elements
constant stutters and cuts and distortions
a bunch of style and instrument changes
very percussion-heavy [i love you percussion and rhythm]
the song replacing pepper steak in the new version of OFF, white meat, is also extremely good
i always like asking random people i know what their gender would be if it had to be one specific song. i always get interesting answers. it’s pepper steak from OFF for me
fwiw i can see the gendergoth/gendergrune post in the tags and dashboard now! i have no idea what made it get yoinked either but it is no longer in the clutch of the infernal censoring machine 🗣️
OH THANK GOD. i emailed tumblr support about it but i have no idea if they actually saw it or if it just got cleared on its own :P
I made this gendergoth flag back in 2023. I really liked it, but I forgot to post it. I know other versions of gendergoth exist, but I wanted this to be a version of it for people whose gender is specifically tied to the goth culture and music genre, as opposed to other meanings where it’s described as feeling dark / spooky, or more general goth aesthetics. The flag is largely based off of popular covers of goth bands I like, as well as the different types of goth fashion that exist (romantic goths, classic goths, etc.)
After that point, I decided to make a gendergrunge flag too. Just like gendergoth, this version was made to be tied to the grunge culture and music genre, rather than being based on grunge aesthetics. The flag has a bit of a greenish tint to it, because faded out browns and greens were common in both album covers and in grunge fashion, as well as a lot of movies of the era that have a washed out blue / green tint.
Importantly, neither of these versions have any inherent aesthetics or anything like that as part of their definitions, because there’s a lot of looks to alt cultures. They are purely based on the culture / scene itself, and how that might look or feel for an individual can vary
I also think there could be a general term for genders based on music-based cultures, like emo, punk, and whatnot. Maybe musiture? Or something like that?
it pisses me offfff that there is a very specific visual style and era of movies / music videos from the 2000s that i like so much, with this veeeery distinct hazy green / blue filter, and the absolute best example of it i can think of is the first twilight movie. twilight.
Otherkind, for me, is something that is persistent. I’ve always been my kintypes, and I always will. The identities themselves are inherent to me as much as my like, gender identity and orientation are. No distinction between the “them” and “myself,” they are one in the same and always have been, always will be.
Link [from what I know, I’m not super knowledgeable on it] is something you actively create and maintain[?] as an identity, I think? It’s chosen alterhumanity- that’s the main thing I know about it.
I think the big thing with constelic for me is that I consider myself to always be constelic, ie, someone who adopts different identities throughout my life, even when I don’t have any literal stels. THAT part is inherent to me, but the identities are not. They tend to come and go, and wax and wane in intensity. Sometimes they burn bright and disappear kind of like a flicker, other times they stay for a long time and then fizzle out. Even funnier is when they come back, too. It’s something ever-changing and evolving for me. It couldn’t be kin, because it’s not always consistent, my stels were not there when I was born, I came cross them and unconsciously adopted them. They’re still super important to me [constels can in fact but just as important and feel just as much like “me” as my kintypes do!] but I’m also aware it’s possible- likely, in fact- that they’ll eventually fade away [but maybe come back later! who knows]. They can’t be link either, because I am not maintaining them and I did not choose them, it was something that simply happened to me without my input or necessarily even knowledge, at first.
All that being said, I intentionally made constelic to be really broad. My experience is just one of many, even as the creator. The big things I would say differentiates them is that stels are not typically permanent or inherent [like otherkin is often described as], and they are often not chosen like a link, either. Constelic for me is a state of being that I’ve always been, but the stels come as a result of that, rather than having stels being the sole reason why I’m constelic.
It’s hard to explain, admittedly. But alas, too late, I’m gonna try to explain how it is for me.
… Imagine most people are a river. You, meanwhile, were born a river with a small net across its entire width. Unlike most people, when the stream’s currents go down the bank, sometimes little rocks and minerals get caught up in your net. You keep them there, you grow attached to them, maybe some more than others. Some are big, some are small. Some might grow or shrink in size from sedimentation. Some eventually get unstuck and wash away, some very slowly degrade until they are gone, maybe some particularly large ones stay forever, or a very, very long time. Maybe some of them somehow find their way back to the net. You haven’t always had the rocks, but you’ve always had- and been- a river with a net.
made another one pretty much exclusively for uploading anything new i make [and possibly some reuploads?], so i have another place to have everything stored just in case anything ever happens [i get paranoid about tumblr going down sometimes, okay?]